Introduction: my story of domestic violence

The introduction.

I’m so incredibly happy I’m alive today. It was that bad, I promise. But I never reported the abuse and the daily violence that were my reality. Because… I didn’t think anyone would care or even believe in me.

Although I have been through this trauma, I’m currently dating another man. I’m still scared, and I will always be. Scared to be beaten up, scared to be violently forced to have sex… Everything and all of that! My current relationship is healthy and nothing like my past, but still, the traumatic PTSD brain is still fighting to stay alive and not think bad of every man on earth.

Like I said in the first paragraph, I didn’t think anyone would believe in me. And that’s actually exactly the reason why I’m open about it. Because I want to raise awareness and continue the discussion of domestic violence. I refuse to shut up and just stay silent. Refuse! Because it’s not my responsibility to, like, keep this man safe or to protect him in any shape or form.

I have no duty to stay silent.

Actually, it’s the opposite. I have a duty to tell. A duty towards myself, to tell my story, to speak out. The world needs it. The world needs us to speak up.

So this is definitely a topic I’m going to discuss more.

And also, from now on, I’m going to focus on posting my memoirs, poetry, and philosophical thoughts here as the main part of this publication.

In the first post, I told you about the things I will post, but now when I think about it, I realize I have to use this publication to tell my truth. And that will be:

• My spiritual path

• My life experiences

• My memoirs

• The philosophical thoughts and theories I have developed

I will no longer post so much about behind-the-scenes or my other creative fields.

Now back, to my story; I will tell you a “summary” - but more like a little memoir - in the next post!

xx

Tricia Joy